2 Steps Forward, 1 Step Back

Ok, so it's been entirely too long since my last post, and unfortunately there's some unpleasant reasons for that. After doing well on the SCD for over 6 weeks, successfully weening off Prednisone and feeling great, I had a major flare up. It started as a little nausea and cramping, and by the time my friend came to pick me up I was practically passed out on the bathroom floor from the pain. About 12 hours, 50 pukes, and 20 bathroom trips later, I was admitted to the hospital with "new inflammation" in my left side and put back on massive doses of steroids, anti-inflammatory meds, and antibiotics.

We're really not sure why it happened. In my desperation to lose weight more quickly I had started a new natural appetite suppressant about a week before the flare up, it had fiber in it. Combine that with the stress of deadline week at work, along with some trouble at home, and my NMD is pretty sure that's what caused it.

This isn't the first time something like this has happened by far, but for some reason this time I came out really traumatized. For the first 2 days I got out of the hospital, all I could do was sit in my pajamas and cry. I had worked SO hard and now I was back to square one. Over the next week I started to slowly slip back into my "bad" eating habits, pretty much consuming whatever I pleased and justifying it with the fact that I can eat whatever I want on Prednisone and not feel a thing. I've been doing this for about 2 weeks now, and I feel terrible about it. The depression hit harder than ever before. I know exactly what I need to do to take care of myself, so why aren't I doing it?

This question remains to be answered. However, I just got back from my follow up at the naturopath and it perked me up a tad. The new student assigned to my case is extremely positive and her attitude is rubbing off on me. I'll be going on the intro diet again, so there won't be many interesting or creative recipes over the next few weeks. I do have some pics from just before I got sick of some goodies that I'll post over the next couple days. Just gotta keep my head up, and take baby steps towards my goal. No diet pills this time.